Art #2 The path. My path. That was when I started seeing myself as a human, not as a function. When I discovered my AuDHD my whole world changed. All things suddenly fell into the place. Missing link was found. I wasnāt broken, I was different. The moment I got that knowledge Iāve thought everything will be easy and colourful. It was actually opposite - all emotions stored in the body for years found the release and that was very challenging. Suddenly Iāve seen the patterns and loops I was trapped in. I couldnāt afford professional support, as my actions got me into financial troubles, so I did all the work myself. Iām still doing it myself with help of my friends. (Super grateful for that šš½) But that knowledge that Iām different and itās not my character but neurology, took a lot of pressure from judging and punishing myself. And thatās always first step to getting better - not adding more sparkly things, but building a clean foundation. The road is harsh for me - especially when you feel everything X times more than normal people. Being polarised (Iām able to create whole business strategy, not able to execute it, Iām able to create things normal people canāt but I canāt keep up with everyday things like bills and cleaning, plus Iām money blind) itās a biggest blessing and the biggest curse. Itās funny how people tell me - you donāt have any condition or donāt focus on your condition, just live your life. Well⦠if I wouldnāt focus on that, I wouldnāt be able to move forward. I would be still trapped in loops my brain creates. Iāve learned to put myself first and to communicate my needs. Still learning, because itās not linear progress. Often it looks like three steps forward, two steps back. But thatās still one step towards better life. My life. Have a great day. ⨠SEE moRe šŖ