This enlightenment is so fuckin' sad. I used to have several people with whom we used to walk the path of enlightenment together. For many many years. And then with covid all of them suddenly turned back. And continue walking backwards. Before, we did not even use facebook, did not watch tv. Now they not only do that, they even scroll reels and instagram. That's how backward they have become. Basically, everyone I knew are dead. Some totally alien idiots walk their bodies now. I never gave up trying to reawaken them, but have not achieved any progress whatsoever. I will stay in the enlightenment regardless. But it is so fuckin' sad. There was faith, trust, loyalty. Now there is none. Especially loyalty. And I still lack like 8 bitcoin to be able to abandon stupid businesses with the idiot world and focus on my sadness full time. And it does not look like I am ever gonna get them. I must have been quite a bitch in my previous life.
