
My journey of becoming someone of some value started not long ago. But i started giving a fuck about myself, im 20 years old but i smoked marihuana for 6 years regularly, cigarretes for same amount maybe even longer. Every friendship almost tied to the same addiction and the ones that were not are over. So yeah i do feel lonely right now but i wouldn't say EVER alone. I found God and my addictions that i was too weak to even try quitting or rather i had no discipline to do anything beneficial in my life. I am an orthodox Christian my whole life but name Jesus resonated just recently and he's the one fueling this broken human and he's repairing everything that i and other people broke so far. My addictive personality and my lack of giving a fuck about everything in general is an double edged sword, for the past 6 years i didnt give a fuck about myself and consequences of my own actions. WHILE NOW i dont really give a fuck again about other people's oppinion and i will pray for everyone who wants to see me down,and everyone in general. When i become great men with a lot of value i will make sure that every human that i encounter in my life that has the same spark i have right now in my eyes get wind flowing in their back in any type or way because i will know how much i needed it right now but again do i ? I started having a lot of good habits but their not good enough i was working as an waiter for 6 years as well in various places now i am OnlyFans chatter and combination of my strong belief in God and contradiction of "having" to work (we dont have to do anything) on literally lust monetization is making me rather insane but its giving me freedom to learn programing and i do have sort of plan but goal? Clear out 50k of parrents debt till end of 2026. Me? Brokie?? Dont make me laugh. Those are all feeling i am acknowledging right now and i understand why i feel that way but i also acnowledge that perfection is enemy of the progress so i will start doing everything i once thought i wasnt "ready enough" and so my journey begins just as yours should too. Whoever if anyone even is reading this testiment i will pray for you to find Jesus the same way he resonated in my heart and may he heal your wounds and give you strenght to move forward in life.βοΈββοΈββοΈβπ₯ π₯ π₯