Suicidal tendencied are NOT disordered thinking, they can be a result of a highly poisoning environment. If you grow up in an abusive/dysfunctional family your inner self gets hurt or even scattered and the emotional pain in you can be immense and feels unbearable. From personal experience i know: you can overcome! I decided against suicide because life offers so many beautiful connections and experiences, and you deserve every good thing that comes your way! Feel hugged and know: universe loves you! π§‘π