Got Proof of Heart?

You ever catch yourself endlessly scrolling on NOSTR/X, and ask yourself why? I always thought it was, "to have an edge investing" or "because these people get me" Those are probably partially true. But when I was challenged to sit with the feeling long enough, I realized it wasn't just that. It was rage. Rage at the world. Rage at the labels. Rage at my family who misunderstood me. Damn, it feels good to acknowledge that. Okay, now time to harness this rage into a ruck walk.

Where can I find him? I owe him some zaps

Most guys are waiting on Bitcoin to do something. To get them somewhere. But we’re the ones stuck. Start the inner work now. So when Bitcoin rips, you’re actually ready to enjoy it. #ProofOfHeart

Proof of Work gave you wealth. Proof of Heart gives you control over the chaos inside. You need both to be truly sovereign.

Dig it! Get yo zaps going!

There’s a hard relationship truth I’ve been avoiding. No matter how supportive or beautiful my wife is, she can’t make me feel powerful. That’s my job. For years I’ve tried to outsource that feeling…asking her to reflect back something I hadn’t owned in myself. And when she didn’t, I blamed her. That’s dependence. Now I’m learning to generate that power internally, so I don’t need to pull it from her. And creating some sexual polarity in the process.

Exactly. Your freedom is a mirror. and most people can’t stand their own reflection.

Have you ever been lying in bed next to your wife and still felt alone? I have. More times than I’d like to admit. We’d be side by side, but I’d feel disconnected. Like something was missing. For a long time, I blamed her. I told myself she wasn’t playful enough, or sexy enough. But the truth is, it wasn’t really about her. I was the one who had checked out. I had disconnected from myself, ignored what I was really feeling, and built up a pattern of looking outside for something to fix the way I felt inside. Instead of facing that, I numbed out. With endless Twitter scrolling. With bitcoin podcasts. With overthinking. With porn. It was easier than sitting with the discomfort. But something started to shift when I stopped blaming her and started getting honest with myself. That feeling of aloneness had been there long before we met. And unless I dealt with it, it didn’t matter who I was with...it would keep showing up. Lately I’ve been learning to stay with the feeling instead of escaping it. I’ve been practicing presence. Letting myself feel the frustration and powerlessness without rushing to change it or bury it. It’s not some dramatic breakthrough. It’s just me doing the work. One moment at a time. And what I’m noticing is that when I do, I start to open up again...to myself and to her. That’s what this work is about for me. Not fixing the relationship. Just becoming the kind of man who doesn’t run from his own heart.

Yes! People feel you more than they hear you. You’re not fooling anyone. You’re just leaking energy trying to manage how you’re perceived. And in doing so, you disconnect from your power dilute your presence.