I'm not scared and happy to share my thoughts on 2026 year publicly. This year was the most nervous and harshest since 2020. Poverty, uncertainty and hardship of finding a job with which I can live more than a slave with the only end. Several doubts if I do thing in right and optimal way in big and hard tasks without certain boundaries in a legacy system. While I was doing these things, my motivation was bumpy, sometimes going to extremes of "I won't do job today, it's completely worthless" and "I can implement this right and quickly because it's very fun and complex". Several electric blackouts, rent price increasing, eshurt blockades. When these waves combined into polycrisis moments, I went to think that my life is completely worthless. But every time I was close to the darkness, it felt that the Angel woke me up. Since this I have released that life still has meaning, until you literally has nothing to pursue your own path for your credo/(para-)ego. That's also why open communities and personalization simultaneously matters, like what I have found in Nostr. Thank you very much, guys! You are cute, cool, smart, strong and kind! You post interesting stuff valuable for learning. However, the journey was interesting for me. I became more like a cat person, sleeping longer hours per day (siestas for warm months and longer monophasic sleeps in colder months). I has fallen in love for playing chess with myself. Sometimes lucid dreams happened with which did like watching and acting in episodes. I has gained clearer understanding from software practice in why freedom is different from anarchy, why harmony and love is different from obedience and complete passivity. It is a time when even autistic person like me needed to break a doubt wall towards more sociability and integrate it with existing logical, mechanistic, probabilistic, fuzzy thinking styles. I started to maintain my own relay, modified it to make Nostr more interesting and prosperous. Kinda meta-game. Merry Christmas and Happy 2026 year! I wish you peaceful, fun and interesting 2026 year. Make handcrafted stuff, make open source, self-host Nostr relays, your sites and AI models, participate in discoveries, keep your peace and curiosity. Only all the gods of the Universe know what is right, starting from the lowest levels and going further in infinitely open nature towards love. Time to extend (meta-)thinking to emergentism and multivariate/open reductionism. Forgot FOMO and cons retardation, chill, have a fun and do right thing =^.^= P.S. Remember SOPA, PIPA and ACTA back in 2011-2013. They were threatening shared media and then the entire Internet. They did not happen...

(and you cannot ask bigger questions if your locality is not extended with technology you own)

Not in the same way tho. Compilers are mechanically deterministic and they replace very dumb copy-paste work. AI is probablistically deterministic. I see it mere as an enhanced search engine, prototypes and dialogue minion

(this was an irony given AI brief review and your previous advocacy for "AI will replace programmers") Utopia is ultimative. It relates to your complete trust to a teller of narrative. For me the Plato's utopia is not new, Western/IE civilizations already experienced its image in different forms of feudalism and dictatorships. So I recently fall for buddhism and individual microcultures which are more interesting for modern state of things.

What are your first programming languages from which you have been into coding? #asknostr #programming

Any DB. Protocol does not define internals, but how you communicate with outside.

I've written about it yet in my Christmas&New Year congratulation post

Independent life is not only about one "variable".

From what I heard in the "Heavenly Spittles", this is not just complex experience, but a progression of complexity which happens at critical points of exhaustion of combinations of reality in certain (local) space. Thus this feels like a story of Universe. Have you heard this: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FDeiFfyftq8 ? For me this sounds like many such stories of different mid-Universes. IMO it's masterpiece

Merry Christmas! 🎄️🎁️

20-21th December also

Thank you very much! This track feels like it tells a story of the Universe. Also I listened to other Blablarism tracks. They are denser in sounding patterns than chilling "Boards of Canada". Love them!

Merry Christmas 🎄️🎉⭐️🎁️❤️🎉🕊️🎁️💜️🎉❄️✴️

I hope it's more interesting, prosperous and open than what Max Caulfield was supposed to do 🙏️🐱️

*my thoughts on 2025 year

If you mean Plato's then anthropocentric nah. World is more open today than it was ~2000 years ago.

> So then competitive force tries to defy it with their antipod version of maximally diversified choices. It might work for better, but I don't trust it. As it's about speculations without new quality of freedoms and love. So this is a degeneracy in my view.

(fuzzily read some of the papers) I think competitive side is dominating in the crisis as it's easily reinforced. Resistance to this also evolves, which at some point takes a form of maximally diversified choices of Internet resources, food, lifestyle practices (slow life, meditation), coins etc. So then competitive force tries to defy it with their antipod version of maximally diversified choices. Hence the POLYcrisis in my understanding (hybrid war relates to it). That's what I was trying to convey. This is reality: I decided to write the post specifically because of risk of increasing collapse of informational infrastructure combined with mass surveillance and reducing freedoms (even if they're cheap: like remote work and open source software). How to make this reality better: it's very hard to decide even if possible at all at large scale. So recently I've fallen for more localized/relativistic view on life combined with ever increasing entropy. I do what's in my current capabilities and in what I love. > We need to start from mindset shift from polycrisis to metacrisis. Nah. This works for people, who are self-motivated to learn new paradigms. I already experienced a mind trap in 2010s, assuming that all people are already equally smart and self-motivated (and have common desires for love), they just(!) need "right knowledge". It doesn't work like that. So recently I've fallen into viewing life more like a game in open world like Minecraft with survival mode. Sometimes I write blog post, sometimes create art, sometimes contribute to FOSS, sometimes chilling much. And all this with privacy and diversification of content providers. Reminds me of Y2K Internet heh.