What is called "lazy", usually means: 1. Poor physical state (undersleep, malnutrition, metabolic defects, dysphoria). 2. Lack of comfort and safety. 3. Lack of assertiveness and individual space. 4. Lack of discipline and routines. 5. Lack of influx of external entropy (via material rewards, community feedback or just traveling, exploring new arts and sciences and crafting new things). If these things are not satisfied, it's too early to be truly lazy...

Haha. I've been even treating social media like tons of broadcasted TVs. This is also the old paradigm...

However, I never used what I built, for myself, leaning to simpler existing alternatives. This is also the old paradigm...

I built these kinds of projects to highlight myself around tons of JavaScript coders prior to AI replacement psychosis. This is remnant of old paradigm where you could just pick some programming languages, frameworks, tools, train algorithmic thinking, apply for job and be hired. Thus show what proves your skill, not fancy-shmancy product vision done by silly eight hands at the same time. From business and user experience perspectives, this is a crap...

The "system" which approached mood with reduction to just few variables of nutrients and physical data, and postmodern depression of hippie feudalism. Web 2.0 functionalism trying to look like its "cozy and playful" Web 1.0. Silly luddite who was tricked by vibe coding propaganda. Failed artist who adopted software engineering. My survival up to 30s is truly miracle...

I am alive, though I've isolated myself from social media for 3 months. This sounds good for two weeks, but in longer run this feels depressing. During this time I was experimenting with GP, building my own system with algorithms for crafting daily schedules and cooking. This was influenced by my dream of August and September of 2025, in which Phicho managed to enhance and civilize the Wild East through his adventure trip and building a project with simulations. I left this "breakthrough" as experiments, because GP is either computationally expensive, or requires very specific heuristics to begin with, while I lack viable use cases for this software. Though I've loved to discover different types of cx, mx and evolutionary dynamics. Then I was busy with relocation, and I went sick and took self-review of coping mechanisms of Spiral Dynamics, chronic depression and pseudocyclothymic patterns. Now I've took long rest, just doing art writing and coding for some of its written patterns. Life feels like dark and cold void from which I must craft my own destiny, because everything I believed as guaranteed paradigms of sustainably healthy, safe and individually free living, do not work in current era. I just do what feels right.